Life is beautiful

Last month I quit from my job at NewsCred so that I can enjoy some kinda unlimited time with my daughter before I join in next job. To many people it may sound crazy (actually it is) as life is expensive in New York. However, I’ve been preparing for this over last 6 months and I think I’ve taken the best decision ever. This time with her is so beautiful and unforgettable that no money can buy it ever.

 

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Standing on her own feet

The moment when I think I got the whole world

The moment when I think I got the whole world

 

 

 

 

 

On the beach

 

 

 

 

 

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Walking on the beach

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Showing new teeth and how she enjoyed orio cookies

 

How it feels to be a dad?

Let me start with a confession: During the last stage of pregnancy of my wife, I came to know how my religion, Islam, honors mothers. Since that moment, I became very jealous of my wife. I seriously started thinking if I could, ever, be a mother. Clearly, there seemed nothing to be precious than becoming a mother in Islam.

This feeling got little intense after our baby was born. People were asking me about my feelings. Though, unlike many, I found it completely not surprising to change her diaper, clean her, feed her, I was very embarrassed to say that I actually don’t feel anything special about her. When, almost everyone around me started asking it and I replied same, I started thinking two things:

1) I may not have enough emotion to feel it.
2) Probably, there is not much thing to feel by a father (getting more jealous).

However, #1 isn’t true. I know myself. In many cases, I’m strong in expressing emotion but I know what I got. So, I ended up thinking #2 may be correct.

After about 2.5 months age of baby I flew to Bangladesh leaving mother & baby behind. When I was in Bangladesh, friends and family was asking if I’m missing the baby. At this point, my answer changed slightly. Most of the cases it was ‘little’ or ‘not much’. Clearly, they didn’t like the answer. They probably expected me to say “I can’t live without her”.

However, things started changing very fast in a week of my travel. I was watching baby over Skype playing with her mom. She (Naisa) became very responsive. She now plays, smiles, makes some noise when she is asked/showed, tries to stand up, hold fingers and direct that to her mouth etc. I started realizing my feeling is changing fast. So, when my wife said she also wants to visit Bangladesh, I made it happen very quickly.

When baby came to Bangladesh (25 days since I saw her last time) she is little bigger but lot charming and playful. She can even hold her feeder (though can’t keep it aligned) and understands that she needs to put the nipple inside her mouth. She does hell lot of other things that just amazing and tough to express in writing.

Now, honestly, it’s very tough just even to stay far without watching her. Relatives, specially cousins, are literally in competition to keep her. They’re sometime angry on me as I frequently become their biggest another competitor showing excuses like feeding her, cleaning her etc.

Photo Credit: Jobaer Shuman

She now makes some weird noises when I keep her on my shoulder and tap her back. However, to me these noises are most beautiful sounds I’ve ever heard.

So all these things change two things

1) I got my emotions right; it just took little while to show up 😛

2) It’s not that bad to be a dad. Happiness with her is gender-agnostic. And fatherhood is the only thing that completes a man. 

 Enjoying every moment with Naisa!

 

কিউবি ওয়াইম‍্যাক্সের সাথে ৪৮ ঘন্টা

অনেক প্রতীক্ষার পর গত ৭ তারিখে অনেক কিউবি ওয়াইম‍্যাক্স এর সংযোগ পেলাম। গুলশানে গিয়েছিলাম ইউএসবি মডেম এর জন‍্য। কিন্তু দেখা গেল সেটা ম‍্যাক সাপোর্টেড না। ঝামেলায় পড়ে ভাবলাম বড় ডিভাইসটিই নেব। কিন্তু সেটি গুলশানে কোন দোকানে বড় ডিভাইসটি নাই। ইফতারীর আগে প্রায় ২ঘন্টায় গুলশান ১ থেকে বসুন্ধরায় আসলাম অন্তিকের এক পরিচিত ব‍্যক্তির কাছে। তিনি বড় ডিভাইসটি ম‍্যানেজ করে দিলেন, যদিও বাসায় এসে পরে দেখলাম সেটি পুরাতন। ফোন করলে জানাল সেটি পুরাতন নয় কিন্তু তবুও পরে পরিবর্তন করে দেবে। যাহোক, বাসায় এসে  অন্তিক ডিভাইসটি সেটাপ করে দিল। একটা চাঞ্চল‍্য ছিল মনে। অন্তিককে বিদায় দিয়েই বসে গেলাম কম্পিউটারে। আহা আহা! পেজ কি দ্রুত আসছে। স্পিডটেস্ট করে দেখলাম ০.৫ মেগাবিট পাওয়া যাচ্ছে। আর নিজেই ডাউনলোড করে দেখলাম ৫৫-৬০ পাচ্ছি। Continue reading →

Recent air travel experience

Recently I have experienced my life’s longest air journey! During this journey, I have used a few numbers of airlines! I am trying to share my experience about them!

I went to Goa, India on 23rd July, 2010! There was no direct flight from Dhaka-Goa! Even, if I want to use single airline, it will take at least 22hours to reach to Goa! On such a critical situation, Nazrul vy (Brother-in-law of arafat vy) from Pan Bright Tours & Travels, arranged connecting flights for me! At first I was very skeptical about the connecting flights because if any flight delays, I will miss the next flight! However, good news is that I did not miss any flight :D! Continue reading →

Hurray! Purchased a new Macbook Pro

Just few hours ago I have purchased a macbook pro (latest model). Really amazing moments! Though I was not much fan of Macbook, but recent electricity problems and my recent interest to iPhone/iPad application development bound me to buy one macbook. Initially I planned to buy macbook rather than macbook pro however, I see a small price gap if I upgrade macbook to 4GB RAM! So, I found it better to buy macbook pro.

Today, I borrowed money from my brother and requested hasin hayder to give me company! Hasin vy picked me from Radission and we both went to Aloha Ishoppe at Gulshan 2. As we wanted to purchase immediately, they agreed to provide free backpack. The backpack promotion actually expired on 30th June, 2010. However, they could not ignore our requests to give one free even now :D. Thanks to them. It is really good.

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Meditation Course from Quantum Foundation

I have a very very long plan to attend the meditation course offered by Quantum Foundation. From the 2nd year of my university life, I was planning to take the course. But I could not attend as my willingness, time and abilities did not match.

However, at the 2nd week of April, 2010, I have decided firmly that I must attend the upcoming course on April 16-19, 2010. It is because, from May, 2010 it will be totally uncertain where I will stay. I have so firm on my decision that I have even canceled the trip to Birishiri, Netrokona with my photography team.

On 12th April, I contacted Rabbit to book a seat for me. It seemed he was excited by hearing my decision :). Then I meet him at Charukola, DU on 14th April and paid the course fee. On 16th May I wake up early (very hard for me indeed ;)) and headed for Marriot Convention Centre. I reached there ahead of time and contacted Rabbit who helped me managing my workshop ID.

The first day was not nothing new at all, as I almost habituated with those of meditation and was practicing at home from long ago. But I was in some physical trouble which continued to 2nd day too. I was enjoying the lectures by Guruji Mohajatak Shahid Al Bokhari!

The third and forth day was more enjoying as I could realize my inner strengths.

Finally, I became Quantum Graduate and got certificates and ID card.

At late evening, another meeting was scheduled earlier by Guruji to meet all quantum members who are in the IT industry, specially web development sector. We all gathered in the “Proshanti Hall” of Quantum Meditation at Shantinagar! Interesting to know that we almost all were known to each other :).

Attended Tech Seminar “Web & Software Industry Opportunities – Beyond 2010”

Last evening, I have attended a seminar titled “Tech Seminar : Web & Software Industry Opportunities – Beyond 2010” arranged by Blueliner Bangladesh,  hosted by CSE Department, BRAC University.

The seminar covered 4 sessions. Those were:

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I am going to be free again

I could not (or did not) write blog when I have joined Athena Software Associates Ltd. But today I am writing as double update. I have joined in Athena Software Associates Ltd. as System Administrator in last May. I had to manage a number of their servers mostly using cPanel and providing system level supports to the customers. I have enjoyed the work there as I have faced a lots of issues with cPanel and learned how to deal with them. Though I don’t have any plan to build my career as system administrator, I believe the gained experiences will help throughout my developer life.

In December, I have decided to resign from my position for a number of reason. The first and the biggest reason is my current physical problem for which I need quite long time full rest. Allah knows how much I can rest  indeed. Some other minor reasons are, I started believing that I am becoming lazy there as the workload is not high. I wish and able to take more workload. Low workload means low learning to me. Moreover, I would enjoy working in team specially under supervision of some experts that would help me gaining knowledge faster.

Yesterday I have submitted my resign letter. However, I have to serve until January 31, 2010 for shifting my duties to new incumbent.

This job was the first full time job for me.  The decision to resign was very tough one. I will miss the superb friendly environment of Athena Software Associates. I will miss all the colleagues of Athena.

স্রষ্টার প্রতি কৃতজ্ঞতা…

আমরা প্রতিটি মানুষ যার যার অবস্থায় অনেকের চেয়ে কতই না ভাল আছি! অথচ তার জন্য আমরা সৃষ্টিকর্তার নিকট কতটুকুইবা কৃতজ্ঞ হই বা তা প্রকাশ করি! অনেকেই হয়তো আমরা মনে মনে কৃতজ্ঞতা স্বীকার করি! সম্ভবত এটিই সর্বোত্তম পন্থা! কিন্তু প্রকাশ্যে কৃতজ্ঞতা প্রকাশ করলে সবচেয়ে বড় লাভ যেটা হবে সেটা হল অন্যরাও তাদের উপর বর্ষিত আশীর্বাদ সমূহ উপলব্ধি করতে পারবে এবং হয়তো তারাও স্রষ্ট্রার প্রতি কৃতজ্ঞতা প্রকাশে আগ্রহী হবে!

ইন্টারনেটে আমরা তো কতই কিছুই না করি! কতই না খেলা ব্লগে ব্লগে খেলি! আসুন না কিছুক্ষণ অন্ততঃ কৃতজ্ঞতা প্রকাশের খেলা খেলি! আপনি আপনার ব্লগে কমপক্ষে ৫টি বিষয় লিখুন (যদিও এরকম বিষয় গুনে শেষ করা যাবে না) যার কারণে আপনি স্রষ্টার কাছে প্রচন্ড কৃতজ্ঞ!

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